Friday, April 6, 2012

Book Club - I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can

This week I read:
Barbara Gordon's groundbreaking memoir tells the extraordinary story of a woman who has it all, or thinks she does--a career as an Emmy-award-winning documentary producer, a man she loves, a world of friends, and a beautiful apartment in Manhattan. But beneath the fascade, Barbara's life is spinning out of control. In spite of the pills prescribed by her doctor, a nameless terror disrupting her daily life intensifies until she is besieged by crippling anxiety attacks. A formerly strong, independent, successful woman, Barbara's life becomes a nightmare of paralysis and fear.

When Barbara finds herself unable to leave her apartment or walk the streets of New York alone, she decides to take charge of her life. She doesn't want pills, she wants answers. Instead of ending her fears, quitting the medicine leads to the unraveling of what she thought was her perfect life, and Barbara becomes a casualty of a flawed and inept mental health system. Barbara had often spoken for the voiceless in her films, but she suddenly finds herself powerless, without a voice of her own. Though she feels frightened and misunderstood, the tenderness and love of another young patient, Jim, helps Barbara rediscover her voice and her identity. (Thanks Amazon)

My thoughts:
I bought this book because it was the 99 cent Kindle deal of the day. I thought it would be a little interesting but I never thought I'd be so captivated by it! I read half the book in one night and I'm finding it hard to put down. It's heartbreaking yet hopeful. I felt for Barbara (I'd call her a character, but since she is real that feels wrong) and I just wanted her to get help and get better and beat the demons she was fighting. As for the boyfriend who was so cruel and unkind. . . I just can't believe someone would treat a person they loved in that manner. This is not the kind of book I usually go for, but I'm glad I branched out.

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  1. This sounds really good. Not something that I would usually read either. Stopping by from book club :)

  2. I just added it to my good reads lists! Thanks for sharing!

  3. Whoa. This sounds intense, but a good kind of intense. :)


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